Were off to the beach.

Our bags are packed, The tv is in the car, I've packed as many presents as I can into our BIG duffle bag, there's a list on the bench reminding me what I need to find in five hours when I crawl out of bed. The house is in lock down, all the power points have been turned off, I've checked the doors twice {all five of them}, the dishes have been washed, the internet has been packed {for work purposes + mafia wars} the floors have been cleaned and the rubbish taken out. I think we are offically ready to leave. Now all I have to do is wake the kids up in a few hours time. For the past two weeks they have been sleeping until 10am so I don't really like my chances.

These little beauties are from tupperware and were brought especially for our trip to airlie beach. They are jam packed with new headphones, ipod, tiny teddies, lolly pops, chicos, colouring supplies, water + fruit.

Next time we chat I'll be sitting on the balcony looking out at the ocean, Merry Christmas everyone xx

Lists

1. It’s hot here. We don't venture out much but that's ok were really enjoying the air conditioning right now.

2. Last night it rained for the first time in a very long time. The storm was amazing.

3. I re-fashioned a new outfit the other day. I think it's my best yet.

4. On Sunday I spent the whole morning with friends. We left early to go to the markets, had breakfast and then made our way home {via the supermarket} We were home by lunch time but it was so nice to spend the morning out of the house without the kids. I'm finding girl time really important lately.

5. I wish I could make it rich selling handbags {or win lotto}.

6. I'm loving this print right now.

7. We are suppose to be at a birthday party right now but the girls are still sitting on the couch in their pajamas.

8. I can not wait until Thursday. I'm dreaming of lying by the pool, good food and lots and lots of fun xx

DO GOOD.

It's been a while since we have done a do good project around here so I thought today would be as good a day as any to start it up again. So today I'm going to re-visit one of my favorites.. I hope it works for you today.

image: flickr

love & loss

This time of year is hard for me. It was about a year ago that we found out that I was pregnant. Luigi secretly jumped up and down hoping for a boy while I sat on the couch anxiously worried about my health problems and how they would affect my body and my baby. We were excited and started to make plans, we thought about how this would effect our renovation plans and how to tell the girls, we re did our budget and started discussing strategies, everything was set in motion and it really felt like this way happening just as we planned. And then everything changed. Our baby was gone. It was hard to deal with. The hardest thing ever. I was twelve weeks along and all of a sudden my baby was gone.

We were due to fly home for christmas the next day. Nobody knew I was pregnant. I hadn't told a sole. I felt like I was always waiting..waiting for the right moment and then the right moment never came. Christmas felt like a daze. I can't describe the feeling. I smiled for the kids but deep inside I was rotting away.

I always thought I would be pregnant again before christmas arrived again. But sometimes it's beyond our control and these things just aren't meant to be. Maybe not now. Maybe never.

I am really happy for others in my life that are pregnant. I truly am. But news of a new pregnancy hits me like a ton of bricks & I'm suddenly brought back to my loss. And I realize that I am still mourning. It seems like it's been so long & I should just be over this. I often wonder when does life return to normal. Will I ever find the light at the end of the tunnel.

I know many have been through this before. I know I am not the only one who feels this way. I know I'm not alone. I don't talk about this with anybody, I always hold my cards close to my chest & I'm not even sure why I'm sharing all this here. I guess right now. I feel the timing is right. I've held it in for so long and kept it all to myself. Maybe the only way to move on is to let it out and by helping myself I may be helping somebody else too and that makes me feel just a little bit better.

Question Time.

It's that time again are you ready. I've been a really slack blogger this week. Life got in the way and before I knew it the end of the week was hear again. Were off to a friends for a christmas party tonight and then on Sunday some friends and I are leaving the dads + kids at home and going to the markets for some much needed girl time. I can not wait. So until then..I leave you with this question.

I'm wearing super cute love heart sunnies, the kids are distracted and I'm about to start wrapping and these little beauties were effie's number one request for christmas. shh..don't tell her!

What do you do with $2 and a size 22 dress?

Any ideas??

Well..if your me. You chop off the bottom and make two really BIG bags and add them to your collection. I'm not sure what I'll do with the top half yet. I'm thinking maybe a dress for one of the girls. I'll keep you posted.

Hey There

How ya doing?

Yesterday was the first official day of school holidays and boy, oh boy was I glad to see it arrive. No more early starts for SEVEN weeks. We slept in until 10am, ate a leisurely breakfast on the couch watching cartoons and I had this beautiful image in head that we would stay hidden inside the house all day in our little air conditioned cocoon of love and relaxation.

I had a huge list of things to do..washing coming out of my ears, the house needed a serious clean, I needed to go to the post office and I had six handbags pre-cut and ready to go.

Everything was going perfectly until Luigi came home at twelve and asked me to drive him to the hospital. Luigi has had allot of health problems the last couple of months and yesterday I think it finally reached a point where he just couldn't take it anymore.

I quickly packed a bag, left the kids with a friend and off we went to the hospital. When Luigi went in to see the doctor I took over the phones and was officially in control of the company {scary stuff} seriously, I have no idea how he does it. Eight hours after way too many physicals, an ultrasound and another visit to the pharmacy we walked in the front door of our house and collapsed on the couch. We didn't get allot of answers..but we knew we wouldn't get an instant fix. It appears our marriage is going to be filled with myserty illnesses, I just hope we don't pass it onto the kids.

Today I'm chilling out at home with the kids {lets call it stress leave} were watching cartoons, decorating and catching up on some washing thats been hanging around for a while. Later on if were really energetic we may just make it to the post office but I would have to get dressed for that to happen and I'm not sure how were going to go with that.

image: bethblinebury